Monday morning weigh-in

March 30, 2009

Sad news – I was only down 0.2 pounds on the scale this morning. But considering the week I had, I’ve decided that’s not bad and at least it wasn’t a gain.

Here’s what probably contributed to the small loss:

  • The fact that I lost 3.3 pounds last week, which is a lot when I weigh 141 pounds. My body might have been a little freaked out by that especially since that’s not a typical weight loss for me in one week.
  • I went out for dinner twice – once on Monday with friends and then had a slice of pizza and some sangria on Thursday after the poster conference. If anything I only broke even in relation to the calories I ate vs. how many I burned on those days.
  • I was stressed about the poster conference for half of the week and I can be a stress snacker – I might have consumed a little extra in terms of calories in the days leading up to it because of that.
  • TOM is right around the corner, so it could be a little bit because of that.

So essentially, I know the small loss isn’t because I majorly messed up. Yes, I ate “bad for me” stuff on Monday and Thursday, but I did exercise to make up for it and going out for dinner is not typical. Monday was not planned – I found out around 2pm that my friends were coming over to town to stop by and we ended up going for dinner. So with that and the poster conference celebration, it just worked out to be twice in one week for basically the first time ever. I can’t be too disappointed with myself over the small number considering I tried hard with everything else, especially given how busy and stressful my week was. Overall, I think I handled it well. I didn’t go nuts with stress eating and I stuck to smart choices at dinner on Monday and stuck to one glass of sangria and one slice of pizza on Thursday.

I’ll just work hard this week and I don’t have any dinners out planned so I think I can see a decent loss next week!



March 28, 2009

Sometimes there are days when I just sit down and seriously consider things for a while. I had one of those days yesterday and into this morning.

I’ve realized that I don’t know what I want to do after university. At all. I mean, I want to take some time off to work full-time, buy a car and live school-free for a little while. But as for grad school? I’m feeling a little overwhelmed by the possibilities. I’ve wanted to be a therapist for several years now but I had a comment from a classmate a couple months ago that got me thinking. She said:

“If you want to have a career in academia, take clinical psychology at the graduate level. If you want to be a therapist, take counseling psychology. If you take clinical psychology, you’ll spend 4 years doing research and almost no time learning practical skills.”

I immediately had an “oh crap” moment when she said that because I realized how true that is. I think I had this thought in the back of my mind, especially because one of my prospective choices, the University of Waterloo, is heavy into research, but her words made me realize that I don’t actually want to go there because of that.

This led me to start considering counseling psychology as well as a program at the University of Guelph – Clinical Psychology: Applied Developmental Emphasis. What this means is clinical psychology with a focus on children and youth and how their development plays a role in psychological disorders. It sounds perfect for me.

But then the poster conference happened and I had an OISE alumnus talking to me about how my research would lead me right into a Bachelor of Education and maybe a job with the school board as a consultant, as a teacher, or as a school psychologist. I had actually considered the counseling program at OISE but now I feel like I have other things to consider.

Thank goodness I’m taking some time off before grad school! Can you imagine if I’d planned to go this fall? There’s no way I’d have had this figured out in time and I could have ended up in a program that wasn’t right for me.

I’ve also realized that I should do what I love, no matter what schooling is required or how much money I’ll make. If I really want to work with reading disabled children and I’m passionate about it, I should do it, even if it’s less money. If I really want to be a child therapist – same deal. I need to figure out what I enjoy most and what I want to do, not which job others would approve of or which makes a good living. I’ve spent so much of my life worrying about what others think I should do and now I need to do what’s best for me. These realizations just hit me like a ton of bricks last night. But I’m glad it did, even though I’m feeling a little overwhelmed and lost about my future.

I know I’ll figure it out. It just takes time.

I realized one other thing: my “diet” is no longer a diet, or something temporary. It’s my new way of life. I’m close to my goal weight and I realized that I no longer have the desire to eat some of the things I used to, not even on rare occasions. I want to continue doing what I’m doing (revised, of course, with more calories). I never want to go back to my unhealthy lifestyle of pizza, pasta, burgers and no exercise. I enjoy being active and healthy foods taste good to me now.

I packed up my old jeans that no longer fit and put them in a box. I was slightly sad to say goodbye to one of my favourite pairs of capris, but they are far too big. My roommate said “well, you could always fit into them again if you gain the weight back” and I thought NO WAY! I’m not going back to the old me. This is me now – I’m healthy and I don’t want to be unhealthy like that again.

So there you have it – my sudden explosion of deep thoughts! I think school must have been keeping them in check for a while but I’m glad they’re free.

A Challenge!

March 27, 2009

I have to admit, when I saw the Oh She Glows Bikini Body Boot Camp I thought “no way I’m going to do that, I’m never going to wear a bikini!” but I have since changed my tune!

I may never feel confident enough to wear a bikini in public, but that doesn’t mean I can’t challenge myself. I’m on the final leg of my weight loss journey and I think a two-month challenge will be a perfect way to stay motivated and hopefully see some results. Plus, there are prizes at the end, so if I’ve seen good changes, I’ll submit my pictures and measurements.

I’m not going to post my starting measurements here – mainly because I feel like my thigh measurement is huge! I don’t have slim legs, never have, but wow! I was a little shocked at the number. I’m alright with my other measurements (waist, hips) – they’re basically what I expected considering my clothing size.

So I’ll just post my day 1 workout routine.

  • 30 minutes on the elliptical – intervals of 60 seconds faster speed & higher resistance followed by 90 seconds of slower speed & lighter resistance [note: I may do another 30 minutes later.. the workout bug has struck me today!]
  • 5 minutes of ab exercises
  • 15 minutes of strength training – arms and legs

There is a daily challenge workout posted at OSG of doing 2 of the linked ab exercises and 3 sets of pushups – well, I did the ab exercises but I despise pushups – my arms and chest hurt like crazy after doing them so it’s no fun.

So day 1 is done. Hopefully I can keep it up and see some results!

Poster Party

March 26, 2009

Whew, am I ever relieved to have the poster conference out of the way!  It definitely wasn’t as nerve-wracking as I thought it would be. Once I started presenting my poster to each of my evaluators, my jitters just went right away! By 3:00pm I’d had both my evaluators come by so I was free to wander and see the other posters. I’d already had an idea of what everyone was doing (we had proposal presentations for about 2 months) but it was cool to see all the different styles of posters! And everyone looked so nice! It’s a dressy event, so everyone put away the jeans and track pants for day.

After the conference, most of us headed over to the Grad Pub on campus for free pizza and drinks – or so we thought. Apparently when you book the Grad Pub they don’t automatically send over a bartender! Weird, eh? So we all migrated over to a private room at the on-campus restaurant. I enjoyed some sangria with some of my friends until I decided I’d better head home or I’d fall asleep! It’s been a long day! I could honestly go to bed right now and it’s 8:0opm!

So overall, it was a fun day, even though it was stressful and now all I want to do is sleep!

Warm weather please?

March 24, 2009

Brr, it was chilly on my run this evening! Thankfully I wasn’t running into the wind for more than a couple minutes or I think I might have become an icicle. Ok, so maybe that’s a bit of exaggerating but it’s cold for officially being spring! We still have mini snowbanks on our lawn. Something isn’t right here.

Anyway, my run was good. I added in about a half to a full block extra on each running interval to work on my endurance. I think it’s getting better! And my body is adapting well – I’ve had no pain (I was worried about my knees because I’ve heard it’s a more common pain to get from the impact) and my muscles have not been the least bit sore since the day after my very first run! Yay!

Other good news: my parents are willing to give me the treadmill we got from my grandpa! So even when it’s raining or ridiculous hot in the summer I can still run. And if I put it in the basement, it’ll be like working out in a nice air conditioned gym – ok, well, not quite, but at close as I’ll get. Our house does not have A/C but the basement is the place to be when it gets above 30C! So basically, I’m going to have a little fitness centre down there. Maybe I’ll even move the elliptical trainer out of my bedroom so all the exercise stuff is in one place. It might be nice to free up some space in my room – it’s 10′ x13′ which is big enough, but not when I’ve got an elliptical trainer (even though it’s not a massive one) along with all my other furniture (bed, desk, dresser, bookcase, the usual).

School is finally deciding that I’ve endured enough stress and is giving me a break! Well, sort of. My crazy crunch time is over except for the thesis poster conference on Thursday. Oh, I got a copy of the program today – it was so cool to see my name in print, even though it’s just a school event and not a big time academic conference. Anyway, once the conference I’m going to be relieved times a million! I think it will be fun, even though it’s a stressful thing for most people – and afterwards we get to go to the grad pub for free pizza and some mingling with fellow students and profs.

I was excited to pick up my poster today and thankfully the colours turned out alright. Apparently the printer has this habit of turning things more purple, which it did to mine but I almost prefer it to my original colour scheme of navy and powder blue, so it’s cool. It’s currently safe hiding away in the lab. I’m glad I had somewhere to store it because it’s pretty awkward to carry around – it’s 40″ x 56″ so even rolled up it’s huge! People were definitely giving me funny looks as I walked from the printers to the lab!

Anyway, I’m about to wind down the evening with either a peach or a little bowl of sweet potato soup. I think I’m feeling something warm but peaches are awesome so I’m not entirely sure yet! After that it’s into bed – I’ve been tuckered out by 11-11:30 each night. Yay for a regular sleep schedule – it only took me all term!


March 23, 2009

After my gain of 0.4 last week (putting my weight to 144.6), I was really hoping to see 143 point anything this morning. Well, I didn’t see 143. Or 142. I saw 141.3! I lost 3.3 pounds this week! I can barely believe it – this is the most weight I’ve lost in one week! So now I have 1.3 pounds left to reach my goal weight of 140 which puts me at a healthy BMI for the first time in a long time.

I can’t believe that I could see my goal weight at next week’s weigh-in. That sure is motivation to eat healthy and exercise all week. If I don’t see my goal weight, I won’t be disappointed. How can I be when I’m so close and if I don’t see it next week, it could just as easily be the week after!

I have been considering adding a new goal of weighing 135 pounds. Because I’m so close to my goal weight, I have a pretty good idea of how I’m going to look when I get there – 1.3 pounds more lost isn’t going to change anything drastically (unless it ALL managed to come off my tummy or thighs or something). I think 135 will put me in a comfortable place. And considering that the weight is still coming off easily, I think my body will allow for it. I definitely wouldn’t try for 135 if I was posting small losses each week, or posting gains frequently.

So my game plan is this: I’m going to stick to what I’ve been doing with healthy eating and exercise since it seems to be working well. But I’m giving myself a deadline for getting to 135. If I’m not there by May 1st, I’m sticking to whatever weight I’m at on that date. I think May 1st is reasonable – it means I would just have to lose about a pound per week for the next month and a bit. I think that goal is attainable.

I’m also going to start thinking about a maintenance plan. I’m most likely going to start adding calories back in slowly so my body doesn’t go crazy. I already have some simple ideas that won’t involve a drastic change to my eating and will increase a couple hundred calories a day back into my diet:

  • switching back to full-fat cheese instead of low-fat
  • using 2/3 c skim milk in my oatmeal every morning instead of all water or only 1/3 c skim
  • eating full-fat yogurt instead of low-cal, low-fat stuff
  • always having a serving of fresh fruit or veggies with lunch
  • having lean beef at dinner some nights instead of always chicken or fish

So I think even small changes will be effective and I’ll have more room for the occasional splurge. Obviously I’ll have to play around with things to make sure I’m maintaining and not still losing each week. But I think I can do it


March 20, 2009

Woo, so glad it’s Friday! My weekend is looking busy but I got my poster and handout for the poster conference done this afternoon, so I’m crossing my fingers that my thesis supervisor won’t want me to make any major changes. Even if she does, I’m still fine for time so I can make it!

Today was a fun day – I volunteered at the psychology booth for the Laurier Day open house! So I got to talk to prospective students for a couple hours. I enjoyed doing it so much and it makes me sad that I’ll only have one more term as a student to do it!

After coming home and having lunch, my boyfriend and I headed to the mall. I wanted to get a new shirt to wear for the poster conference, since it is a dressier event and I don’t have much in the way of dress clothes – aside from pants. So I found shirts on sale at Jacob – one’s a white button down and the other is a dark purple sweater to wear over top. They don’t have full length sleeves (they end above the elbow) so it’ll be perfect as long as it’s not ridiculously warm on Thursday. So for both shirts it was $40! Score! Especially since I’ll be able to wear the stuff in the future for job interviews.

We headed to Old Navy afterward and I was a brave girl – I tried on a pair of size 8 jeans even though I was really skeptical about fitting into them. But THEY FIT! I was so excited and did a little happy dance in the change room! I didn’t buy them – I’m going to see if my parents will spring for them as a “congratulations for getting to your goal size and good job on not letting school own you” gift for when the term ends. My size 10’s are still a perfect fit with a belt – even though I need a new one.

Speaking of that – they had a nice belt in Jacob I liked on sale for $15. The problem? I’m not sure how it worked! Haha! It didn’t have the usual type of buckle and I couldn’t see how it held together! I also didn’t want to ask the salesgirl – can you imagine asking “Could you tell me how this belt works?”. I thought I’d sound ridiculous so I passed on it – and then forget to check for belts at Old Navy. Sigh. I’ll get a new one soon enough!

After grabbing some Timothy’s (apple cider for me and some crazy chocolate coffee drink thing for the boyfriend) we headed home and I got right down to business on school work.

So overall it was a fun and productive day! I’m planning on a walk or run later to cap off my great day and then watching Lost! Sadly I had to record it because I was going crazy preparing for a presentation in my seminar the next day so I’ve been itching to watch it since Wednesday night! I can’t wait!